I Have A Dream...

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see

This is the song which the Abba/ Mama Mia fans will know.

I have a dream too.

My dream is to publish a book of my own.

And it is going to materialise soon!

Writing has always been my passion (in Chinese..lah). Clement used to keep my articles published on the newspapers. When he showed me the folder he used to keep the articles, a thought crossed my mind -- how wonderful if it wasn't a plastic folder but a book! From then on, I begin to dream of having a book of my own.

However, "becoming an author" is something out of this world for me. It seems too big, too distant, too intangible for me. How on earth, a nobody like myself, can publish a book and see them on the bookshelves of Popular and Kinokuniya? I dreamed about it and talked about it but I never really think I will ever, ever do it.

Those who knew what happened to me early this year knew that it was quite a difficult time for me. Part of my world was quite shattered and filled with darkness and fear. It was in these difficult times that I thought to myself "I AM going to realise my dream. I will prove to myself that nothing is too big to dream for! I want to assure myself that I am capable of realising my dreams!"

After that, I thought about it seriously and put my thoughts into action.

Yes. I just met my publisher friend this afternoon. He is helping me to bind my dreams into a book.

And I have another dream too! This is not possible if not for MayDay. I found so much strength and inspirations from their songs. In my darkest days, I couldn't control my tears when I listened to their songs like 《出头天》、《我心中尚未崩坏的地方》. It felt like they were singing to me and understood exactly, EXACTLY how I felt then. It gave me so much comfort in those turbulant times. I asked my publisher friend to get the books ready before 29 August 2009, which is their concert in Singapore. I am going to find my way to present them with my book and to thank them for their music which lifted me up. Yes. I am going to do it.

Nothing big is going to come out of this dream of mine, seriously. I am not going to be the next best seller author in Singapore nor I am going to be rich and famous. In fact, I will be a few thousand dollars poorer for publishing a Chinese book in Singapore because of the pathetic market.

However, it is really my way to keep myself going and fighting. It is my way to give Jaimie a gift. It is my way to say thank you to all my loved ones. It is a way for me to say to my friends, I appreciate all of you so much.

I shall not reveal the contents of the book as yet but I will reveal part of the list of people whom I dedicate the book to! It is a long list, because it is probably going to be the one and only book I am going to write! Hahaha~~

Not in any particular order:
Wolfgirl
Vivian
Joyce
Meekfreek
Diana
LZMommy
Yeow Seng & Shelley
Bernard & Dawn
Terry & Pam
Raymond & Janice
Cedric and Elodie (yes, I know they are French)

For my "UK gang", the greatest, greatest gift in my life, besides my family, is ALL OF YOU!!. I LOVE YOU ALL!!

For my forum-friends-who-become-great-friends-in-life, thank you!! Thank you for EVERYTHING!

For LZMommy, you may not know how much you have inspired me!

I could not write my personal messages to you all in the book so I write them over here in my blog.

I will keep everybody updated on the status of the publication, rather, my dream!